Black Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 02:00, WDC-BII Plz.

A Tribute for Be Loved -"X"- Sister

Me: Just 3 days before I heard your happy voice that always makes me feel cheerfull.2 days before u said not feeling good but never care w/ ur health unless I always angry w/ ur  ad habit. Last day morning u said couldn’t hold it anymore and have to do checkup and ctscan.

Me: Until this night u sent me sms said,

"X": "After medical checkup, I’m very ill & under many medications.Bang..maafin smua keslhn "X" yg sngaja & tdk sngaja ya.Mhn Doa spy "X" cpt sembuh. Janji ama "X",Abang ga blh sedih; hrs slalu senyum & alwaysmake good deeds 2 other people slagi msh bs.Oiya..Promise me,Judesznya ilangin yach..Hehehe..Zzzz Zzz.."

Me: It just 2 night be4 I sms u after midnight told that I couldn’t sleep…I don’t know why but I told u that "I’m thinking a woman and I hate my feeling coz why I never success in loving a women". A week ago u angry /w me coz I said "Better if I never find a true love coz it wouldnt hurt me and I just wanna spent my time to lose this headache w/ a woman only just for a 1 night standing"…then I appologized that I was being in error mind.

Me: I was so very2 shock..what the hek w/ u sister and u still stuborn don’t wanna tell me what the matter w/ u. I hate u coz always keep ur problem alone like a top secret..then u said,

"X": "Bang,bknnya "X" g mo b’rahasia dgnmu,"X" g mo + bebanmu apalg yg sakit kan "X",bkn Abang.I can fight this.Ms depanmu msh pnjg.Don’t waste on what’s not clear. Abang pasti BISA!Klo Abang lg "in hope",go 4 it! If u think she’s the best 4 u & can alaways makes u happy either in good/bad times,ya udh,what r u waiting4?!Go 4 it!Tuh kan,bnr,brarti Doa adik t’kabul kan u/Abang yg wktu ucapan ultah t’lmbt. =’)) (Amen…)"

"X": "I prayed 2 God,that Abang dibrikan keshtn yg baik,pjg umur,karier sukses&smoga dtunjukn jodoh yg t’baik that will last long ever."X" senang Abang happy.."

"X": "..And the reason is you…I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you.I’ve never meant to saythose things to you cuz’ I’m not a perfect person.."

Me: Dear "X"..I never feel being hurt by you…every single word u said is perfect..so u don’t have to say sorry. I don’t know why u said like that coz’ I’ve always treat u as my beloved friend & sister…u’r my 4th unforgetable sister I’ve ever had in my life.
I was smiling when read it coz’ it similiar /w my favorite song "The Reason" by Hoobastank and Simple Plan (ur favorite band)…maybe.

Me: When u gave me a special gift in my last special day (5th Oct)..I’m very2 happy and thankfull w/ the special stuff that I’ve been waiting for..unless u said "I never meant to think about it" but God had told u…I hope it’s not ur last treat to me ur brother.

Me: At the first time I meet u until I know how deep is ur problems…u always act as if u’re strong & happy..but it’s true u’r really a strong & stuff woman. U give ur whole breathe for ur family specially ur father for ur job…and u prove it ur carrer just begin to rise. Unfortunately every body have a limit and this world have a limit too so u don’t have to prove it to all people.

Me: U always remind me t share my problem w/ another..never keep it alone…as ur beloved father do. But now u don’t want to tell me what’s ur illness.
"X"…u can’t put the whole world on ur shoulder alone…even if u have a lot of talent and power.

Me: Thanx my dear..for ur tribute to me…this friday midnight…

"X": "DinginMrasukDiKalbuKu,NamunSepiTakSggpMnusukJiwaKu,MlmSlimutiJagatRaya,TpTerangSlalu
JabatEratSukmaKu,TrimaKshRajaManusia,YgTlahCiptakanDiaDiSisiKu&M’jagaKu. =) "

Me: Sudah Lama aku g baca cara unikmu nulis sms kayak gini…pertama kali 7 bln lalu aku baca sms mu tg ada pusing bacanya tp jd lucu dan menjadi ciri khasmu…sampe terpikir koq masih kayak abg bgt tulisan sms mu hehehee…

Me: My Dear "X"…I’m sorry having sent u sms this midnight that made u think something…that,

"X": "How did u know if I was gonna b ure angel & watching over u from up above????? =’(
I never meant to write it to make u be more sad…the sms just to make u laugh and smile…

"X": "Abang…Lg apa?"X" g bs bo2.Smlman nangis"…

Me: "X" sweetheart…remember that…

Me: Believe that God will show His miracle if we always ask and believe in Him.

Me: The Bible says:"There is nothing impossible with God, but there’s something HE can’t do: HE can’t stop loving you!"

Me: Dia yg dapat melakukan jauh lebih dari apa yg kita dapat bayangkan, bukan saja akan menenangkan badai dalam hidup kita, tetapi juga melindungi kita dr segala yg jahat.

"X": "X" sbnrnya slh crita ama Abang ttg sakit "X" krn saat ini Abang lg bahagia bgt. "X" ga mo ngrusak!Udh ah…Anggap aj "X" ga sakit krn "X" ga mo prilaku Abang jd brubah hny krn "X" sakit."X" lbh suka klo Abangmp’tahankan kjudesan&kgalakan-nya..Bang,1 hal lh,hny 2 orgyg tau "X" sakit ini.I just don’t have the heart 2 hurt u.It’s the last thing I wanna do.Plz jgn ksh tau kel ku.PROMISE yach!"X" ga mo + beban pikirankel -ku.Mskpn hidup "X" bnyk bgt cobaan..at least I want 2 RIP… =’))

Me: I’ll always pray to our Lord "Jesus" for u -"X"- sweetheart my beloved sister…

Black Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 01:00, WDC-BII Plz.

The Reason - Hoobastank

I’m not a perfect person
There’s many things I wish I didn’t do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I’m sorry that I hurt you
It’s something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why I need you to hear

I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

I’m not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

Another Fucking Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 00:30, WDC-BII Plz.

Quiet Admiration - Kate Dowd

                  My soul forms the words,
                  My heart ensnares them,
                  Locking them in its warm chambers,
                  My mind knows these words,
                  And my fingers write these words,
                  Yet my lips,
                  The dastardly things
                  They find no valor,
                  And can not form the words.

                  How is it that I can feel these words,
                  With so much hope and admiration
                  Just for you,
                  Yet my lips can not speak them
                  To tell you
                  Of your shy smile
                  And your crystal eyes?
                  I am enamored by you,
                  By your words and your laughter.

                  You leave me breathless,
                  As the air leaps out of my mouth,
                  Twirling and bowing to your charms,
                  Enchanted by your congeniality.
                  Your face is imprinted in my mind
                  Never leaving,
                  Never fading.
                  Your smile warming my heart,
                  And your eyes entrancing my soul.

                  I wish I could form my feelings
                  Into articulate words
                  Of love and wonder
                  And tell you of my feelings,
                  Let you know of my aspiration
                  To be held securely in your arms,
                  Where I long to be,
                  Sitting serenely with you,
                  Basking in the sweet resonance of stillness.

                  But I know that wish is unattainable,
                  Far out of my reach,
                  Yet I admire you still,
                  Yearning that one day you’ll notice me
                  As more than just a girl
                  But as a young woman
                  Whose heart you’ve whisked away
                  Into the perpetual sky,
                  Floating along the clouds.

                  And everyday I linger
                  Hoping for some acknowledgment,
                  A fleeting look or a petite hello.
                  Perhaps to even hear you speak my name
                  Would bring warmth to my heart
                  And joy to my days
                  As I wait for you to discern
                  That I, quietly,
                  Admire you.

Another Fucking Friday After Midnight, 28-Oct-2005, 00:05, WDC-BII Plz.

TRUE - Ryan Cabrera

I won't talkI won't breatheI won't move till you finally seeThat you belong with me

You might think I don't lookBut deep inside the corner of my mindI'm attatched to yoummmm

I'm weak, it's trueCause I'm afraid to know the answerDo you want me too?Cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing that's trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

You don't know what you doEverytime you walk into the roomI'm afraid to move

I'm weak, it's trueI'm just scared to know the endingDo you see me too?Do you even know you met me?

[Chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

I know when I goI'll be on my way to youThe way that's true

[chorus]I've waited all my life to cross this line To the only thing thats trueSo I will not hideIt's time to try anything to be with youAll my life I've waitedThis is true

Sunday Afternoon, 15-Oct-2005, 11:40, WDC-BII Plz.

The Power Of The Dream - Celine Dion

Deep within each heart

There lies a magic spark

That lights the fire of our imagination

And since the dawn of man

The strenght of just "I can"

Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary

In the living of each day

There’s a special part

Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

As the world gives us its best

To stand apart from all the rest

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far

The rest is just pure heart

You’ll find your fate is all your own creation

Every boy and girl

As they come into this world

They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us

Every woman child and man

It’s the moment that you think you can’t

You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn

Teaching lessons we must learn

To bring us closer to the power of the dream

The world unites in hope and peace

We pray that it will always be

It is the power of the dream that brings us here

The power of the dream

The faith in things unseen

The courage to embrace your fear

No matter where you are

To reach for your own star

To realize the power of the dream

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 21:30, WDC-BII Plz.
My Favorite British Band…coz today is Friday and tommorow will full of roses…ohh "my lovely guitar" I wish u were here babe to fullfill my  heart…Arghhh…I’m very2 love this song.

Friday I’m In Love - The Cure

I don’t care if monday’s blue
tuesday’s grey and wednesday too
thursday I don’t care about you
it’s friday I’m in love

monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn’t even start
it’s friday I’m in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate…

I don’t care if monday’s black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it’s friday I’m in love

monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it’s friday I’m in love

saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate…

dressed up to the eyes
it’s a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it’s such a gorgeous sight
to see you in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it’s friday
I’m in love

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 21:00, WDC-BII Plz.
My Canada Bad Boys Band…love, simple, straight, and beatfull

Perfect World - Simple Plan

I never could’ve seen this far
I never could’ve seen this coming
Seems like my world’s falling apart

Yeah

Why is everything so hard
I don’t think I can deal with the things you said
It just won’t go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through

Yeah

I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can’t find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don’t know what I should do now
I don’t know where I should go
I’m still here waiting for you
I’m lost when you’re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can’t let you go

Yeah
Yeah

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You’d still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all 

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 20:30, WDC-BII Plz.

The Power Of Love - Celine Dion

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling by like thunder now
As I look in your eyes

I hold on to your whole body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

(first chorus)
‘Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I’ll do all that I can

Lost is how I’m feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside’s too
Much to take
That all ends when I’m with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I’m far away
Never wonder where I am
‘Cause I am always by your side

(repeat first chorus)

(second chorus)
We’re heading for something
Somewhere I’ve never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I’m ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can’t go on
Is lightyears away
(repeat first chorus)

(repeat second chorus)

the power of love

the power of love

sometimes i am frightened
but im ready to learn
of the power of love

the power of love

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 20:00, WDC-BII Plz.
My Favorite XL Ring Back Tone Song…

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban - Padi

Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu

Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu

Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar

Aku tak terpakut oleh cintamu

Menelusup hariku dengan harapan

Namun kau masih terdiam membisu

Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu

Mendekap penuh harapan ‘tuk mencintaimu

Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu

Menanti sebuah jawaban ‘tuk memilikimu

Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku

Semoga kau tahu isi hatiku

Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar

Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

Friday Night, 14-Oct-2005, 19:30, WDC-BII Plz.
Her Favorite Song…

Kejujuran Hati - KerisPatih

ku akui aku memang cemburu
setiap kali kudengar namanya kau sebut
tapi ku tak pernah bisa
melakukan apa yg seharusnya kulakukan
karena memang kau bukan milikku

ku akui aku merindukanmu
meski ternyata tak pernah kau merindukanku
tapi ku tak pernah bisa
melakukan apa yg seharusnya kuinginkan
karena memang kau bukan milikku

reff: sesungguhnya ku tak rela
jika kau tetap bersama dirinya
hempaskan cinta yg kuberi

semampunya ku mencoba
tetap setia menjaga segalanya
demi cinta yg tak pernah berakhir

ku akui aku merindukanmu
meski ternyata tak pernah kau merindukanku
tapi ku tak pernah bisa
melakukan apa yg seharusnya kuinginkan
karena memang kau bukan milikku

repeat reff

   kejujuran hati yg tak mungkin dapat ku pungkiri
   keinginanku untuk kau tau isi hatiku
   demi cinta yg tak pernah berakhir